Being emotional and Esther.

Today is not a good day.

This past monday, I started school again. I'm a senior in high school and you'd think I'd be really excited about it. I'm not. I feel... empty inside. I miss the hell out of my best friend, who left for college yesterday. I've been ridiculously emotional ALL DAY and it's really starting to piss me off. I mean, I knew I was going to be sad, but I didn't think I was going to be randomly bursting into tears every time I see something slightly sad on tv or whatever. For example, I was watching a Nerimon video on YouTube earlier in which there was a dead bat on the porch outside someone's room and when Alex said something about it, I exploded into tears. Because of a DEAD BAT. I don't even like bats. They scare me. But it was kind of sad that one was dead, so I starting sobbing my eyes out stupidly and out of nowhere. Ugh.
Another, more justified, reason that I cried today was because a lovely, beautiful, wonderful Nerdfighter girl by the name of Esther Earl passed away last night after a long, hard battle with cancer. Esther was a Nerdfighter role model. When I first heard about her, I was amazed at how happy she seemed, despite the fact that she had every reason not to be. She did so much for our community, whether she meant to or not. She was a beacon of hope, a shining star. I will admit that I did not know Esther personally, but that does NOT mean that I have any less right to mourn her. And mourn her I will. She was a great girl and she will be greatly missed.

Esther, this one is for you. <3